I have been so busy lately. I can never seem to catch up on everything I think I need to do and just relax. Even when I have crossed all of the tasks off of my never-ending list, I still have anxiety about something that I may have forgotten to put on the list to begin with. I always have this need to be accomplished. I set myself up for this laundry list of things to get done and in the meantime I’m missing out on all the things I really want to do. There are a ton of books that I want to read, there are a ton more projects that I want to do. I always think about how other people manage their time and how they would probably think I’m insane for complaining. I can’t help but think about what life would look like with kids. I get a panic attack just thinking about the overwhelming feeling that would come with that. I’m more than sure that there are just things that you have to skip, not worry about and let go. I’m not good at letting go.
I pulled together some quotes to help me remember to calm down and take time to just be.
For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.
I wasted time, and now doth time waste me.
Dost thou love life? Then do not squander time, for that is the stuff life is made of.
Saturday I got a ton of things done, but Sunday I just let myself be for once. I didn’t finish the video editing for the theater, I didn’t put away all of the laundry and I didn’t do another hand full of things that were on my “list.” Here is what I did do.
Sean and I went to church (This is normal of a Sunday morning for us)
I read my guilty pleasure girly book. I am now over half way done in just 3 days.
I decorated Easter Eggs with Sean
I know that my list will not go away. That’s what I get for being a list maker. I just know that it is healthy for me to step away and not get so caught up in making check marks.